Mood: happy but pained.
I desperately need to get onto making my dress for this weekend!
I can't wait ^_^ It's gonna be a fun night no matter what happens, even though I know I have already won... it will be awesome all the same.
I have made my mask, I'll take a photo and upload it when I can.
Also had a driving lesson today, the car was super flashy, felt like I was in the cockpit of a Cessna!!!
I will be going for my test soon, early January. I will pass, I know that... I just am scared to drive on my own!
Monday, December 7, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Crap I forgot I had a blog.
Mood: mixed.
Yep.
*gives you all some 'sorry cake' and earl grey tea with lemon*
Spent the last few months actually working my frelling butt off.
Sim patient. Did so much of that work... do you know how it feels to be four different people in eight days? No? I do. ^_^ They pay me, so I'm happy.
It also feels nice to contribute to the education of med students.
I have done a couple of clowning gigs as well, I love working with the kids, they are so cute and find everything I do funny! ^_^
Also... I did some more street theatre, for which I must upload some images... but I haven't. I'm so lame!
X-My-Ass is coming... and for once, I had almost all my shopping done before December! Not bad for miss disorganised. *cheers*
All this with the mishap of my expired bank card, which I still can't use due to the fact that I do not have a pin number yet... :/
And also... I won a G award! Not bad... although I was practically the only one in my category XD. I'm still relatively happy about it, and I get to stay down where they are being held for a night. ^_^ Taking a couple of new friends I met through theatre, they are two really awesome people and they are probably the cutest couple there ever could be! If only everyone could be in love like they seem to be *grins*. A is also coming and since he is awesome fun, I'm really looking forward to going. I am not too concerned about the actual award, since I never ever act for awards... the night itself will be fun enough for me!
We are staying in the same caravan park as we did for the one act play festival, which might trigger my emo... there are memories of that place that I just can't remove. I am trying my hardest to forget and move on, but some days it is really hard. I am glad I will be spending it with some really cool people who will tell me to stop being emo if I start crying. XD
Also, D has been practicing hypnosis, and I'm seeing some amazing results in both me and E.
News Spoons:
* I won a G award!
* I have been working my butt off... but feeling rewarded!
* I've done some poetry and story readings to be aired on radio next year.
* E has been approved for an aide next year, and he will have the same teacher as this year!
* We went to a special kids christmas party in the city, which E had an awesome time at!
*I have been painting, and playing piano.
* I am attempting to sew my dress for G awards. I will upload a pic when I'm done!
bye for now, I'll try and update more often!
Yep.
*gives you all some 'sorry cake' and earl grey tea with lemon*
Spent the last few months actually working my frelling butt off.
Sim patient. Did so much of that work... do you know how it feels to be four different people in eight days? No? I do. ^_^ They pay me, so I'm happy.
It also feels nice to contribute to the education of med students.
I have done a couple of clowning gigs as well, I love working with the kids, they are so cute and find everything I do funny! ^_^
Also... I did some more street theatre, for which I must upload some images... but I haven't. I'm so lame!
X-My-Ass is coming... and for once, I had almost all my shopping done before December! Not bad for miss disorganised. *cheers*
All this with the mishap of my expired bank card, which I still can't use due to the fact that I do not have a pin number yet... :/
And also... I won a G award! Not bad... although I was practically the only one in my category XD. I'm still relatively happy about it, and I get to stay down where they are being held for a night. ^_^ Taking a couple of new friends I met through theatre, they are two really awesome people and they are probably the cutest couple there ever could be! If only everyone could be in love like they seem to be *grins*. A is also coming and since he is awesome fun, I'm really looking forward to going. I am not too concerned about the actual award, since I never ever act for awards... the night itself will be fun enough for me!
We are staying in the same caravan park as we did for the one act play festival, which might trigger my emo... there are memories of that place that I just can't remove. I am trying my hardest to forget and move on, but some days it is really hard. I am glad I will be spending it with some really cool people who will tell me to stop being emo if I start crying. XD
Also, D has been practicing hypnosis, and I'm seeing some amazing results in both me and E.
News Spoons:
* I won a G award!
* I have been working my butt off... but feeling rewarded!
* I've done some poetry and story readings to be aired on radio next year.
* E has been approved for an aide next year, and he will have the same teacher as this year!
* We went to a special kids christmas party in the city, which E had an awesome time at!
*I have been painting, and playing piano.
* I am attempting to sew my dress for G awards. I will upload a pic when I'm done!
bye for now, I'll try and update more often!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Rumination.
Feeling: Meta...
Existence.
Living.
Dying.
Dreaming.
Feeling.
Colours.
Painting.
Drawing.
Seeing.
Being.
Believing.
Faith.
Hope.
Disintegration.
Memory.
Fade.
Sun.
Moon.
Light.
Lemon.
None of this means anything.
Existence.
Living.
Dying.
Dreaming.
Feeling.
Colours.
Painting.
Drawing.
Seeing.
Being.
Believing.
Faith.
Hope.
Disintegration.
Memory.
Fade.
Sun.
Moon.
Light.
Lemon.
None of this means anything.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Searching.
Mood: sad.
My little son ran away.
He's back now, but there are reasons he ran away which I need to sort through.
My little son ran away.
He's back now, but there are reasons he ran away which I need to sort through.
Pain.
Mood: pensive, thoughtful.
Pain is a gift.
To learn from life, we must feel pain.
Pain is a punishment.
To learn from our mistakes, we must feel pain.
Never let go, hold it close.
Keep the gift that life gives you.
I want to play paintball.
I don't want to do anything to alleviate it.
In fact, I want create more of it.
Pain is a gift.
To learn from life, we must feel pain.
Pain is a punishment.
To learn from our mistakes, we must feel pain.
Never let go, hold it close.
Keep the gift that life gives you.
I want to play paintball.
I don't want to do anything to alleviate it.
In fact, I want create more of it.
Once, in every blog, there comes a post like this...
Mood: Cheery
SPAMALOT!
Yes!
After a long decision process, the theatre company I am a member of has decided to produce Spamalot for 2010!
I can't wait to be involved!
It's frelling Monty Python!
YAY!
*slaps fish*
SPAMALOT!
Yes!
After a long decision process, the theatre company I am a member of has decided to produce Spamalot for 2010!
I can't wait to be involved!
It's frelling Monty Python!
YAY!
*slaps fish*
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Emo is a sad Emu.
Mood: Struggling
I was supposed to go to the gallery today, but poor Neb is sick sick sick. I feel really terrible for him, because if it is what Dru and Mum have... it's gonna be around for a while.
I haven't updated in a few days, owing to the fact that I have either been busy, lazy, or under hypnosis.
Hypno is wonderful... it makes me feel all sleepy and mellow, and I don't have to think about the things that are bothering me... anyone who says psychotherapy is the best way of dealing with something, is a total fool! Compare treatments:
With Psychotherapy, you sit there, talking and dwelling on the things getting you down, over and over for hours and hours, session after session. Basically, it reinforces the thing making you sad, and causes you to continually relive it. It costs a packet, and you always end up leaving feeling a little pensive.
With Hypnotherapy, you are encouraged and taught how to let go, in a safe and relaxing place where you feel calm and happy. It's relieving, and in fact discourages you from dwelling on the problem! It also costs a bit, but you can also learn to do it for yourself and others, and you leave each session feeling well rested and calm!
I know which one I'm gonna choose!
In other news... Shinny came over to play video games on the weekend! That was awesome! We had the best time playing old PS2 games, I found out I suck at micro machines... and practically any other game that doesn't include puzzles to solve XD
Next time, we are gonna have a LAN, and play some classic games... My choice was Scorched earth, which is this awesome game that is like worms warfare, but predates it by a few millennia, XD!
I was supposed to go to the gallery today, but poor Neb is sick sick sick. I feel really terrible for him, because if it is what Dru and Mum have... it's gonna be around for a while.
I haven't updated in a few days, owing to the fact that I have either been busy, lazy, or under hypnosis.
Hypno is wonderful... it makes me feel all sleepy and mellow, and I don't have to think about the things that are bothering me... anyone who says psychotherapy is the best way of dealing with something, is a total fool! Compare treatments:
With Psychotherapy, you sit there, talking and dwelling on the things getting you down, over and over for hours and hours, session after session. Basically, it reinforces the thing making you sad, and causes you to continually relive it. It costs a packet, and you always end up leaving feeling a little pensive.
With Hypnotherapy, you are encouraged and taught how to let go, in a safe and relaxing place where you feel calm and happy. It's relieving, and in fact discourages you from dwelling on the problem! It also costs a bit, but you can also learn to do it for yourself and others, and you leave each session feeling well rested and calm!
I know which one I'm gonna choose!
In other news... Shinny came over to play video games on the weekend! That was awesome! We had the best time playing old PS2 games, I found out I suck at micro machines... and practically any other game that doesn't include puzzles to solve XD
Next time, we are gonna have a LAN, and play some classic games... My choice was Scorched earth, which is this awesome game that is like worms warfare, but predates it by a few millennia, XD!
Friday, September 25, 2009
New Muse Album.
Muse are gorgeous, and I love them.
Most of their songs are made of win.
How's that for endorsement.
Most of their songs are made of win.
How's that for endorsement.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Hmm...
Mood: Blank, Anticipating
I feel like I'm just existing.
It's never easy, losing something.
And so, I suppose this is how it feels, rejection.
So I'm gonna do the stupid woman thing... retail therapy. I'm going to go shopping and buy myself stuff.
I hate spending money on things I don't need, but anyway... some pretty shiny baubles might make me feel a bit happier.
For the record, I bought stuff, but I'm still sad.
I feel like I'm just existing.
It's never easy, losing something.
And so, I suppose this is how it feels, rejection.
So I'm gonna do the stupid woman thing... retail therapy. I'm going to go shopping and buy myself stuff.
I hate spending money on things I don't need, but anyway... some pretty shiny baubles might make me feel a bit happier.
For the record, I bought stuff, but I'm still sad.
Organ Grinder.
Mood: Pensive.
The song is done.
I haven't added the left hand to it yet, but I basically know how that is gonna work.
It's a short piano melody, simple, but represents how I feel.
The merry go round of emotions...
The longing.
The desire and hope.
The end.
I'll upload it when I can.
The song is done.
I haven't added the left hand to it yet, but I basically know how that is gonna work.
It's a short piano melody, simple, but represents how I feel.
The merry go round of emotions...
The longing.
The desire and hope.
The end.
I'll upload it when I can.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Bees.
Mood: High, buzzing
Just got back from a huge cardio workout at the gym!
Bought the new Dan Brown novel... gunna read it with alacrity!
Loving it so much because it makes me feel frelling awesome! I'm buzzing!
Anyway, yesterday I was driving past the Shopping Center in the "next town over" and there were all these bees everywhere! Like, I am talking hundreds and hundreds of them, all over the road and swarming in the air!
The air was thick with bees! I drove through them, and they clung to my windscreen and flew all over the place! I took a good look, they were honey bees! WTH!
I parked, and there were about thirty bees still sitting on my car!!!
And here's me thinking the bees were disappearing...
Now I know where they all went, the shops in 'the next town over'!
I also sorted out my financial crisis... which makes me smile and thank god.
Also, I haven't drunk any alcohol for a couple weeks... because I always do really stupid things when I have been drinking... pleh.
I'm all good now. Acceptance has hit, and I understand the issues involved.
Just hope that... they... know I love them. Always will. But it's a different kind of love.
Now onto making myself a better person!
Just got back from a huge cardio workout at the gym!
Bought the new Dan Brown novel... gunna read it with alacrity!
Loving it so much because it makes me feel frelling awesome! I'm buzzing!
Anyway, yesterday I was driving past the Shopping Center in the "next town over" and there were all these bees everywhere! Like, I am talking hundreds and hundreds of them, all over the road and swarming in the air!
The air was thick with bees! I drove through them, and they clung to my windscreen and flew all over the place! I took a good look, they were honey bees! WTH!
I parked, and there were about thirty bees still sitting on my car!!!
And here's me thinking the bees were disappearing...
Now I know where they all went, the shops in 'the next town over'!
I also sorted out my financial crisis... which makes me smile and thank god.
Also, I haven't drunk any alcohol for a couple weeks... because I always do really stupid things when I have been drinking... pleh.
I'm all good now. Acceptance has hit, and I understand the issues involved.
Just hope that... they... know I love them. Always will. But it's a different kind of love.
Now onto making myself a better person!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Doin it FTL.
Mood: Relaxed.
Having a super lulzy day today!
I aim to keep things this way... because every day is this amazing gift that I have been given!
I'm reading this hilarious blog:
http://awkwardfamilyphotos.com
If you get a chance, follow it!
I'm about to go and watch me some Star Wars, Episode 2... ^_^
Having a super lulzy day today!
I aim to keep things this way... because every day is this amazing gift that I have been given!
I'm reading this hilarious blog:
http://awkwardfamilyphotos.com
If you get a chance, follow it!
I'm about to go and watch me some Star Wars, Episode 2... ^_^
Monday, September 21, 2009
Broken.
Mood: Depressed, Angry.
Ugh.
I'm broken.
Completely.
Why do I do this to myself.
Why do I let people do this to me?
How could I let this happen?
I'm so angry.
Addendum: Built me up and told me I was safe, then broke me. Took my spirit away.
Ugh.
I'm broken.
Completely.
Why do I do this to myself.
Why do I let people do this to me?
How could I let this happen?
I'm so angry.
Addendum: Built me up and told me I was safe, then broke me. Took my spirit away.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Today is a bad day.
Mood: Depressed.
Positivity.
It fails me today.
Trying to be good, I really am.
Trying to remain positive and do the things that others need me to do to feel ok.
I have to keep reminding myself that despite not wanting things to be this way, it's the way others want things to be. It's the only way things can be now.
Their happiness is more important to me than avoiding one bad day.
Lather, rinse, repeat.
I just want things back to normal.
Positivity.
It fails me today.
Trying to be good, I really am.
Trying to remain positive and do the things that others need me to do to feel ok.
I have to keep reminding myself that despite not wanting things to be this way, it's the way others want things to be. It's the only way things can be now.
Their happiness is more important to me than avoiding one bad day.
Lather, rinse, repeat.
I just want things back to normal.
Clocks...
Mood: Creative, Pensive.
I'm trying to learn 'clocks' by coldplay.
It's ok... going well... sort of.
The sheet music shows notes different to the ones I hear, and playing the sheet music version sounds wrong wrong wrong!
But, I'm only playing the right hand at the moment... I'll add the chords later.
I think the sheet I have was transposed down a half note, 'cause it sucks and sounds dull.
I'll upload a midi of playing it when I get it right ^_^
It's enjoyable, taking control of these songs that make me feel, I realised that when playing them, I can use what I know of acting to inject some emotion into the songs.
I'm trying to learn 'clocks' by coldplay.
It's ok... going well... sort of.
The sheet music shows notes different to the ones I hear, and playing the sheet music version sounds wrong wrong wrong!
But, I'm only playing the right hand at the moment... I'll add the chords later.
I think the sheet I have was transposed down a half note, 'cause it sucks and sounds dull.
I'll upload a midi of playing it when I get it right ^_^
It's enjoyable, taking control of these songs that make me feel, I realised that when playing them, I can use what I know of acting to inject some emotion into the songs.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
I have hope.
Mood: Hopeful
Hope.
The one thing that has always kept me here.
I have recently gone through something incredibly painful. It didn't hurt just me, either.
But with pain comes growth.
I realise I have many personality flaws that come from immaturity and insecurity, that I have endeavoured and am currently working on. I want to be a better person.
I also realise that what I had... and lost due to these flaws and other things, I held very dear, it was a one in a million thing, that made me feel more real and alive and worth something than anything ever before and is something I only ever dreamed could exist.
Now that I know it is real and can exist, I have this seed of hope growing in my heart that one day, in my future, I could possibly have something like this again.
I really ~hope~ so.
But I have a lot of growing to do... gotta water the seed and care for myself!
This one hope is what keeps me looking forward to the future...
Hope.
The one thing that has always kept me here.
I have recently gone through something incredibly painful. It didn't hurt just me, either.
But with pain comes growth.
I realise I have many personality flaws that come from immaturity and insecurity, that I have endeavoured and am currently working on. I want to be a better person.
I also realise that what I had... and lost due to these flaws and other things, I held very dear, it was a one in a million thing, that made me feel more real and alive and worth something than anything ever before and is something I only ever dreamed could exist.
Now that I know it is real and can exist, I have this seed of hope growing in my heart that one day, in my future, I could possibly have something like this again.
I really ~hope~ so.
But I have a lot of growing to do... gotta water the seed and care for myself!
This one hope is what keeps me looking forward to the future...
GLOVE BOX LOVE...
Mood: exasperated.
I hate my car.
I hate my house.
Not being the tidiest of persons, I leave shit everywhere.
Hence, one lost playbook which needs returning three months ago.
One house torn apart looking for aforementioned playbook... I go to my car and there it is... in the frelling glovebox!
It was with me today when I went to see the play I needed to return said book for.
I don't wear gloves, so therefore all the other random detritus of my life goes in there.
Oh well, at least I have a scenic drive ahead of me tomorrow...
XD
I hate my car.
I hate my house.
Not being the tidiest of persons, I leave shit everywhere.
Hence, one lost playbook which needs returning three months ago.
One house torn apart looking for aforementioned playbook... I go to my car and there it is... in the frelling glovebox!
It was with me today when I went to see the play I needed to return said book for.
I don't wear gloves, so therefore all the other random detritus of my life goes in there.
Oh well, at least I have a scenic drive ahead of me tomorrow...
XD
Friday, September 18, 2009
Gotta keep moving...
Mood: energetic, hyper.
Today, it's Saturday.
It's been nearly a week.
I have to keep up the momentum, to keep the distraction working.
So it's gym time again. Armed with my trusty podcasts teaching me Japanese, I have to keep going, keep moving.... cause keeping still lets things stew and stagnate.
It feels like, the more I move, the more things fade.
So for now, I gotta keep running...
Today, it's Saturday.
It's been nearly a week.
I have to keep up the momentum, to keep the distraction working.
So it's gym time again. Armed with my trusty podcasts teaching me Japanese, I have to keep going, keep moving.... cause keeping still lets things stew and stagnate.
It feels like, the more I move, the more things fade.
So for now, I gotta keep running...
Power of the Pyramid!
Mood: Proud, Creative.The second performance was tonight, and I feel like it was good! I love the metaphors of this art project, the conglomeration of ideas into a whole that is powerful and meaningful!
I have an image or two from this project, but I will add better ones as I get them. I can't show you the whole thing because it would give too much away.
(Photos copyright Shinny.)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
What a beautiful day!
Mood: Inspired.
I have a little bit of happiness in my heart now.
Yesterday was really rainy, so I was pleased to spend it in work.
The day was overwhelmingly grey so I just drove around the place with nothing to inspire me. I was sullen and glum. I'm getting used to the idea that I have to remember all the road rules on my own... which is a really unusual experience when you are used to being told what to do!
Today, I went to the gym in the morning. That usually makes me feel elated! I get really intense in my workouts and find it hard to focus on my surroundings. I love the buzz it gives me... it's a great distraction!
Since it was such a beautiful day, I drove my car around the streets of the next town over and just enjoyed the scenery, It's really hilly and has some quite beautiful views! I drove past a friend's place... this friend is someone I really admire. He is very artistic and creative, and just a generally nice person to be around.
Well as I drove past, I saw he was sitting in a tower thing I presume he built himself! It must have been 10 or 15 meters tall! A metal structure with a sort of seat up top for observing, It was amazing! I had to do a double take as I drove past his house and then I doubled back to honk my horn and wave... how cool it must have been to sit up there, being inspired by the world around, like a bird in a lofty tree!
It made my soul smile!
I have a little bit of happiness in my heart now.
Yesterday was really rainy, so I was pleased to spend it in work.
The day was overwhelmingly grey so I just drove around the place with nothing to inspire me. I was sullen and glum. I'm getting used to the idea that I have to remember all the road rules on my own... which is a really unusual experience when you are used to being told what to do!
Today, I went to the gym in the morning. That usually makes me feel elated! I get really intense in my workouts and find it hard to focus on my surroundings. I love the buzz it gives me... it's a great distraction!
Since it was such a beautiful day, I drove my car around the streets of the next town over and just enjoyed the scenery, It's really hilly and has some quite beautiful views! I drove past a friend's place... this friend is someone I really admire. He is very artistic and creative, and just a generally nice person to be around.
Well as I drove past, I saw he was sitting in a tower thing I presume he built himself! It must have been 10 or 15 meters tall! A metal structure with a sort of seat up top for observing, It was amazing! I had to do a double take as I drove past his house and then I doubled back to honk my horn and wave... how cool it must have been to sit up there, being inspired by the world around, like a bird in a lofty tree!
It made my soul smile!
*undies*
Mood: Hopeful.
:)
that is all.
that title... is meant as "Un-dies" not undies as in underwear.
:)
that is all.
that title... is meant as "Un-dies" not undies as in underwear.
*dies*
Mood: Motivated, Frustrated.
Workouts are fun! I've been back at the gym which is awesome... and frankly, I need the distraction from my head.
Well, I fell off the bike today... my heart rate went from 135 to 185 in the space of a couple of seconds and I spun out.
Hmm... maybe I should stick to the gym in my home town.
Workouts are fun! I've been back at the gym which is awesome... and frankly, I need the distraction from my head.
Well, I fell off the bike today... my heart rate went from 135 to 185 in the space of a couple of seconds and I spun out.
Hmm... maybe I should stick to the gym in my home town.
DOING
Mood: motivated.
Things I want to, or am currently learning (or re-learning):
Computers
Piano
Singing
Tap
Jazz
Ballet
Music theory
Bass Guitar
Guitar
French
German
Japanese
Clarinet
Bagpipes
Drums
Acting
Writing novels
Chemistry
Sociology
Psychology
aaand the list goes on.
I'm not a little... swamped am I? XD
Things I want to, or am currently learning (or re-learning):
Computers
Piano
Singing
Tap
Jazz
Ballet
Music theory
Bass Guitar
Guitar
French
German
Japanese
Clarinet
Bagpipes
Drums
Acting
Writing novels
Chemistry
Sociology
Psychology
aaand the list goes on.
I'm not a little... swamped am I? XD
I always see the trees to spite the frigging forest!
Mood: astounded, frustrated, clear.
FRELLING FRELL FRACK FRIG!
Don't you hate it when things click into place?
When clarity hits you in the face?
I never realised, but it all makes sense.
And if I had taken the chance to think about it I would have behaved entirely differently.
Sorry.
This epiphany hurts.
FRELLING FRELL FRACK FRIG!
Don't you hate it when things click into place?
When clarity hits you in the face?
I never realised, but it all makes sense.
And if I had taken the chance to think about it I would have behaved entirely differently.
Sorry.
This epiphany hurts.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Mood: Flat.
I have found that when I smile now, I feel. With feeling comes emotion, so now smiling actually makes me upset.
I've figured out feeling blank and flat is the way to go at the moment.
One day I will elaborate on this, but for now... I'll keep it secret... keep it safe...
It does kind of feel a bit like the One Ring. I feel a bit like Frodo... small, seemingly insignificant... with a heavy weight thrust upon me suddenly.
It rules me, it makes me feel invisible, it tempts me. But when I bear it, it is a burden that changes me and causes a lot of pain. Yet I can't let go of it, it is ~my precious-s-sss~.
I need to bathe it in fire. I need to take my own personal mental journey to the mountain... I have my Sam, who bears it with me, shares my pain. I have Merry and Pippin too, Making me laugh and keeping me sane at the worst of times.
A friend of mine also gave me the equivalent of an ent. Find a tree I love. Imagine my tree... stand under it and imagine it's roots spreading out far and grounding me. It's stable, immovable and symbolic of strength.
I have my Saruman and Gandalf too... and the corruption... and the Nazgul follow me, chase me and shroud me from living at any possible chance.
I need to make this journey.
I have found that when I smile now, I feel. With feeling comes emotion, so now smiling actually makes me upset.
I've figured out feeling blank and flat is the way to go at the moment.
One day I will elaborate on this, but for now... I'll keep it secret... keep it safe...
It does kind of feel a bit like the One Ring. I feel a bit like Frodo... small, seemingly insignificant... with a heavy weight thrust upon me suddenly.
It rules me, it makes me feel invisible, it tempts me. But when I bear it, it is a burden that changes me and causes a lot of pain. Yet I can't let go of it, it is ~my precious-s-sss~.
I need to bathe it in fire. I need to take my own personal mental journey to the mountain... I have my Sam, who bears it with me, shares my pain. I have Merry and Pippin too, Making me laugh and keeping me sane at the worst of times.
A friend of mine also gave me the equivalent of an ent. Find a tree I love. Imagine my tree... stand under it and imagine it's roots spreading out far and grounding me. It's stable, immovable and symbolic of strength.
I have my Saruman and Gandalf too... and the corruption... and the Nazgul follow me, chase me and shroud me from living at any possible chance.
I need to make this journey.
Get over it!
Mood: crying, longing.
I miss... everything.
I miss the affection. I miss it so much, it physically hurts.
Anyway.
O_Q
Sorry for the super emo enigmatic update. I'll be ok in a minute.
*hands you some madeira*
...
I miss... everything.
I miss the affection. I miss it so much, it physically hurts.
Anyway.
O_Q
Sorry for the super emo enigmatic update. I'll be ok in a minute.
*hands you some madeira*
...
Things are better the bigger they are!
Mood: hurt, motivated.
Things are better the bigger they are!
Hi there again... sorry for the delay in updates... I've been off being an emo sourpuss... but I am back... updating and all that jazz!
First things first... I am about to plonk a bunch of images on here that I find on the interwebs that I think you will find funny...
I'm sick to death of facebook. Facebook will eat your soul if you let it!
And I have been doing shows galore... I started this year with 'Who Goes Bare' playing a manic maid, then I ended up helping out (going mental) with costumes for 'Beauty and the Beast'... never again! It was fun, and I learned heaps, but costumes do my head in.
I also helped direct a play one of my dearest friends wrote called 'The Lady of the English' about a time traveler who meets the very first female monarch of England, and prevents her from doing nasty stuff to herself... like die.
That was a wild and fun experience, I had the rare opportunity of working with some people who were brand new to theatre, I got to workshop with them and see them grow into theatre. I learned so much from them and will value my time with them forever!
There is also a couple of radio plays I have been promising to record for this same friend, which I have been evil enough to ignore. I'll post a link when we have completed them, his writing is pretty awesome, so I am really looking forward to laying those tracks down and hearing the final product!
The street theatre regained some momentum too, and we did a couple of really fun gigs, one of which got us accommodated in some pretty nice digs in the city (pics to follow, cause it did happen!) And have been working on a really interesting art project for the Melbourne Fringe Festival... which has been ultimately rewarding and fun!
I've been writing a fair bit, lately, and trying to learn everything under the sun (see my other blog for info on one of those things) Piano is turning out beautifully! I forgot what can happen when you apply yourself... and I am applying myself liberally to those plastic ivories... writing songs and the like. I'm now dicing up wether to attempt NaNoWriMo this November... (ty Aron ;) )
(It's amazing what a little perspective and pain does for your creativity...)
Cheers friends!
Stay tuned for more updates! ^_^ = 42
Things are better the bigger they are!
Hi there again... sorry for the delay in updates... I've been off being an emo sourpuss... but I am back... updating and all that jazz!
First things first... I am about to plonk a bunch of images on here that I find on the interwebs that I think you will find funny...
I'm sick to death of facebook. Facebook will eat your soul if you let it!
And I have been doing shows galore... I started this year with 'Who Goes Bare' playing a manic maid, then I ended up helping out (going mental) with costumes for 'Beauty and the Beast'... never again! It was fun, and I learned heaps, but costumes do my head in.
I also helped direct a play one of my dearest friends wrote called 'The Lady of the English' about a time traveler who meets the very first female monarch of England, and prevents her from doing nasty stuff to herself... like die.
That was a wild and fun experience, I had the rare opportunity of working with some people who were brand new to theatre, I got to workshop with them and see them grow into theatre. I learned so much from them and will value my time with them forever!
There is also a couple of radio plays I have been promising to record for this same friend, which I have been evil enough to ignore. I'll post a link when we have completed them, his writing is pretty awesome, so I am really looking forward to laying those tracks down and hearing the final product!
The street theatre regained some momentum too, and we did a couple of really fun gigs, one of which got us accommodated in some pretty nice digs in the city (pics to follow, cause it did happen!) And have been working on a really interesting art project for the Melbourne Fringe Festival... which has been ultimately rewarding and fun!
I've been writing a fair bit, lately, and trying to learn everything under the sun (see my other blog for info on one of those things) Piano is turning out beautifully! I forgot what can happen when you apply yourself... and I am applying myself liberally to those plastic ivories... writing songs and the like. I'm now dicing up wether to attempt NaNoWriMo this November... (ty Aron ;) )
(It's amazing what a little perspective and pain does for your creativity...)
Cheers friends!
Stay tuned for more updates! ^_^ = 42
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