Bees.

Mood: High, buzzing

Just got back from a huge cardio workout at the gym!

Bought the new Dan Brown novel... gunna read it with alacrity!

Loving it so much because it makes me feel frelling awesome! I'm buzzing!

Anyway, yesterday I was driving past the Shopping Center in the "next town over" and there were all these bees everywhere! Like, I am talking hundreds and hundreds of them, all over the road and swarming in the air!

The air was thick with bees! I drove through them, and they clung to my windscreen and flew all over the place! I took a good look, they were honey bees! WTH!

I parked, and there were about thirty bees still sitting on my car!!!

And here's me thinking the bees were disappearing...



Now I know where they all went, the shops in 'the next town over'!

I also sorted out my financial crisis... which makes me smile and thank god.

Also, I haven't drunk any alcohol for a couple weeks... because I always do really stupid things when I have been drinking... pleh.

I'm all good now. Acceptance has hit, and I understand the issues involved.

Just hope that... they... know I love them. Always will. But it's a different kind of love.

Now onto making myself a better person!

Gotta keep moving...

Mood: energetic, hyper.

Today, it's Saturday.

It's been nearly a week.

I have to keep up the momentum, to keep the distraction working.

So it's gym time again. Armed with my trusty podcasts teaching me Japanese, I have to keep going, keep moving.... cause keeping still lets things stew and stagnate.

It feels like, the more I move, the more things fade.

So for now, I gotta keep running...

*dies*

Mood: Motivated, Frustrated.

Workouts are fun! I've been back at the gym which is awesome... and frankly, I need the distraction from my head.

Well, I fell off the bike today... my heart rate went from 135 to 185 in the space of a couple of seconds and I spun out.

Hmm... maybe I should stick to the gym in my home town.