I have hope.

Mood: Hopeful

Hope.

The one thing that has always kept me here.

I have recently gone through something incredibly painful. It didn't hurt just me, either.

But with pain comes growth.

I realise I have many personality flaws that come from immaturity and insecurity, that I have endeavoured and am currently working on. I want to be a better person.

I also realise that what I had... and lost due to these flaws and other things, I held very dear, it was a one in a million thing, that made me feel more real and alive and worth something than anything ever before and is something I only ever dreamed could exist.

Now that I know it is real and can exist, I have this seed of hope growing in my heart that one day, in my future, I could possibly have something like this again.

I really ~hope~ so.

But I have a lot of growing to do... gotta water the seed and care for myself!

This one hope is what keeps me looking forward to the future...